'I literally would become like a doormat': Priyanka Chopra on dating co-stars
Los Angeles/IBNS: Global star Priyanka Chopra Jonas, who is busy promoting her projects 'Citadel' and 'Love Again', revealed that she took a break from romantic relationships before meeting her husband Nick Jonas as she did not want to repeat past mistakes.
During her appearance on Call Her Daddy podcast with host Alex Cooper, the actor opened up about her love life and how at one point she went from "relationship to relationship".
"I did not give myself time at all between relationships... I think I worked a lot and I always ended up dating the actors that I worked with. And I think that I just thought I had an idea of what a relationship should be like, and I kept seeking that and trying to fit the people that came into my life into my idea of that relationship," the 40-year-old actor said.
"After my ex (boyfriend) and before my husband, I literally took two years off. And there was a big reason. I didn't even date Nick at that time because I was just like I need to know why I keep repeating my mistakes," she said.
"The repeating of the mistake was always feeling like, I need to be the caretaker, always feeling like it's okay to cancel my job, my work, my meeting or my priority to make sure that he's propped up," Priyanka said.
She went on to say that she ended up dating actors she always worked with and became like a "doormat".
"It was so normalised in my brain for so long that I ended up giving the power in such a skewed way that I never stood up for myself. I literally would become like a doormat and I was like, okay, that’s fine because, you know, that’s what women have been told for such a long time that our role is to glue the family together or you’ve got to make your man feel comfortable when he comes back home,” shared Priyanka blaming it on her "patriarchal society" mindset.
She said that she soon realised that what she was doing was 'self-destructive' and started feeling ‘invisible’ in her relationships.
“I reached a point in my life where I was like, what the f*** are you doing? Like, this is getting self-destructive at this point when I had to choose me, I had to be like I don’t owe no one anything except my family and myself, the people who truly love me.
"When you are in relationships where you stop recognising who you are, you stop having your own identity, or you stop knowing what is it what you want for yourself, what your goals are, then you are invisible. And, I just started feeling invisible in my relationships,” she added.